Pause

Unwind, rewind
Forward, stop
Pause
Gathering, re-centering
Making space, expanding
Yet still ...this tightness...

Centrifugal spinning
Inwards, deep
Then, outwards
Shot, thrown out of orbit

For this body
Splattered, broken
Smithereens
Fragile particles, split
Torn, wringed, chewed and spat out
Fallen into a deep well
Or as in quicksand

This body, not my body
Nobody told me it would be
Like this, and no one can see
what is like inside me
The invisible, rotten, broken,
Soul and body
Body and soul
Forgotten skin, coolness, tightness
Now, softened, expanded
Particles, floating, floating
Bloating, Gaseous molecular nebulae
Cloudy, my head, cotton wool
Blotchy, blurry, dizzy
Marshmallow dimples, cellular disintegration
Cramping sensation, my body
This body, this body?
Lost, and found, battered
Can someone tell me when and how
I can start mending?