Saturday 3 August 2019

Should I

Pale, like the colours of the rising sun
The early bird sky
I wonder, why, oh my, when it begun
The fire red colours of sunset
Twilight zone, sure, in retrospect
It was a slow transition
But, now, it is getting in the way
Of my life, my position
My rhythms, my night, my day
Don't know where I am anymore
I just get up and go to bed with a sore

Should I stay, go, pray, sing?
Sing these pains away;
Should I cry, talk about this thing,
That doesn't even have a name, anyway?

Should I call it a day?
Should I call it a night?

Should I lay the ghost of this?

Should I just lie low
Or lie still, and stop the time
Just for now...
Wait
Just wait
Until the curtains fall on
This Shit no one talks about
After all
It's only a matter of time

Should I just pretend it's not happening?
Grind my teeth and bear it all.
Should I shout, tell you all
This stage I am entering...
What it is about?
This thing no one wants to talk about?
Taboo, Bloody Hell, Disturbing disturbances,
No pattern, no cycle, new stage,
Irregular, regular, changes, imbalances,
Surrender, fight with rage
Black Cohosh, vitamin B and sage.

That's it, I should, should I,
Just go with the flow..
I know, I know..
Not now
Let me just lie here
Just lie